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Tuesday, August 31, 2010

Ammo Just Arrived

"Ammo Just Arrived" is posted on a sign for a hardware store that I pass while taking Harrison to school.  It really struck me as an odd thing to put on a sign.  As Big Harrison would say "I am not their target market" being the advertising aficionado that he is, which is so true, I am not.  But really is that the "bait" to get people in the door.  I guess it is, it's just not gonna get me in the door.  But in another aspect that sign if perhaps on a billboard it could be interpreted to mean so many things, I mean, "Ammo Just Arrived."  It could mean, I am ready, watch out.  It's a possibility right?  Not to give too much attention to something that is really not that important, I just found it funny & thought provoking. 

Kind of like this past Sunday, during the Sermon, our minister quoted the 23rd Psalm "though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death" and my brain split into two thoughts..yes, I am talented like that..it's a fun trait that I possess, it truly makes having a conversation with me exciting!  So my two thoughts went to, the 1st time I remember hearing this Psalm which was at my grandmother's funeral, my dad's mom.  A popular one for funerals yes, but it always stuck with me.  Then my other thought went to the mid-90's movie "Dangerous Minds" b/c the theme song from that movie "Gangsta's Paradise" also uses that same verse from Psalm 23.  And then my thoughts went to my funeral, more a celebration of life, and in my flash of my funeral that song was playing..very strange I know but that's just how my brain works.  I don't really think I'd want to use that song when my time has come but I guess there are worse choices. 

This past week was the anniversary of Hurricane Katrina.  Several news programs featured the aftermath on their shows.  It's kind of sad that that area on gets attention on the anniversary & I know that so much has been done but it'll never been enough.  We some how dropped the ball when Katrina 1st hit.  I mean, in our own country to help our own people we dropped the ball.  I remember when the Hurricane 1st hit & people were packing up to head to that region, I would have loved to have gone.  But part of me was scared b/c of all of the "unknowns" that were being scattered on the news but it still was a pull to go.  I did end up going to Mississippi the following Summer with the Youth at our Church for a Mission Trip.  Even almost 1 yr later, it was like time stood still.  It was insane.  Everyone needed help & it was still unorganized at to who got the help, how they got it, and so on.  The organization that we were working with was on their game but they had to work with the barriers of getting the help for the people that needed it.  And the magnitude of what had happened & what everyone went through was so hard to comprehend.  It's just something I have never witnessed or experienced before.  We stood on cement slabs where houses once were, we saw dishes scattered & broken, cars washed up on the side of the road, churches with out walls, piers completely gone, roads broken into sections as if a huge jackhammer had stomped on them.  We saw tons of fema houses, which I went into one & just couldn't imagine making that my home.  I know if I had too, I would but they were so small & I just couldn't imagine living in something that felt like the size of my car but with a single burner for cooking in it.  I am so grateful for the chance to go there & will never be able to remove the feeling or things I saw there nor would I want too, I only wish I had the means to do more.

Now the rest of my thoughts seem mundane compared to that.  But I guess that's ok?  There's not much else going on in my thoughts right now.  I did my usual routine of taking kids to school and then to the gym today.  I didn't go yesterday because I had some errands to do & I knew I couldn't fit in going to the gym, errands & getting Harrison by noon.  So I didn't go, which made me wonder how this morning was going to work & if I was going to be able to fit it in.  But I did, I took him to school then Benjamin & I headed to the gym.  I was finished in enough time to even shower & plant two mums I bought yesterday before I had to leave to get Harrison.  I felt pretty good about getting it all in.  I just never know how much Benjamin is going to allow me to do, but for the most part he just goes with whatever I need to do.  It's a nice thing! 

So now instead of folding the clothes that I just dumped on my bed I am blogging.  Using my time wisely, I know.  Plus my dog, Ty, has taken up residence in the middle of the pile of clothes, so I wouldn't want to disturb him, maybe when he wakes up I will tackle the clothes.  Lil Harrison is pretending to make muffins in his room & while I have been typing he has brought me a strawberry one, a mixed fruit one & a banana one.  He said his "Anna" which is his pretend sister, showed him how to mix them & where to get the mix form.  Abbie has a pretend sister named "Anna" too so that's how Harrison's started but they are two totally different Anna's & they live in different places & do different things.  It's kind of cute.  I guess one day it will be inevitable that Benjamin will have an "Anna" too.  Maybe when they all grow up they'll all live together with their "Anna's".  At least that's what Abbie & Harrison talk about.  More of living next to each other in a their own apartments in NYC.  They have a fascination with New York b/c of their Aunt Jane.  She lives in the city & that's where they both, particularly Abbie wants to live.  She asked me one day if NYC had a lot of stores, to which I said "yes" and then she asked do they have a lot of stores with make-up, again I said "yes" she followed that with, "I am definitely going to live there"  This from my child that is super picky about her clothes & doesn't like the fancy ones (thank goodness) but she wants to go live in a place known for fashion.  Maybe her pickyness will transpire into a future career for having a special eye for all the latest trends.  Who knows, right?  Although I know that if I ask her if she'd want to work in fashion or with make-up when she grows up, she'll tell you no b/c she's going to be a cowgirl so she can ride horses all the time.  She loves horses.  She had wanted to be a firefighter until she found out you have to sleep at the fire station & wear a uniform.  She's not all about sleeping away from home or not wearing her own "comfy clothes"  She's a character, I tell ya!  But as my mom likes to tell me "she gets it honestly" and I know she does, b/c it's like looking in a mirror sometimes when I watch her.  In a way it's like that with all 3.  They are a good mix & as Benjamin gets older I'll see more of it but I can totally see it in Abbie & Harrison. 

Well, I am going to have some down time with the remaining 30 mins I have before I load the kids up to go get Abbie.  I just doesn't seem like enough time.  Especially when I have had a 3 yr old talking my ear off for most of this post.  All about his muffins.  It's too cute so I just have to listen, especially when he said he made more & wanted to share with me.  He just has a heart of gold!  He & Abbie totally love helping me make meals for others & that's what he's doing, making muffins to help his "Anna" feel better b/c she's sick.  Now just remind me of this when he's pitching a fit later today.

All for now, I am off!  Hope you have a wonderful day!

Wednesday, August 25, 2010

A New Day

I am sitting on our porch watching the kids play and it's just the best thing ever.  They are happy & so am I, what more can you ask for.  Dinner is in the oven & all is well.  Not all moments in our day are this way, we have lots of crazy moments where I feel like I could just crawl into bed and never come out but I really try not to feel this "defeated' feeling that often b/c I find when I do, "they" take over & chaos in sues..so I remain calm, keep them busy & try not to pull my hair out.  Ever have those moments?  I know I am not alone. 

Other than school & the gym, there's nothing new in my life.  I did take the boy's to a Volunteer Orientation this morning at Bethel, it didn't go so hot, so I ended up leaving & emailing the super nice Volunteer VP & apologizing for leaving but as a mom, she totally understood & I have another Orientation for Room Mom's so she said I'd get it all then, I will make sure the boys are not with me.  I am looking forward to taking on some new tasks at Abbie's school, you know how I like to be involved.  Once we left, Harrison had a meltdown b/c he wanted to go to my mom's house and didn't want to go to the gym & I almost gave in but I knew that if I took him there & didn't go straight to the gym I wouldn't get a number for the spin class.  Plus, I don't like him just thinking he has an out, so I stood my ground & took him to the gym, despite the fact he was crying & they had to leave him in the sign-in area so he could calm down.  He was totally fine, it was more of he woke up early so he was tired.  As soon as I picked him up he told me how much he had fun & enjoyed going to the gym.  It's all an act.  But anyways, we went on about our day & they were fine.  Abbie had another great day at school.  She loves that she gets stars & green squares for good behavior..makes me wonder if I should start something like that.  But she'd probably just want the school ones. 

I guess outside of my daily routine with the kids there is my "other" life, at church and with my mom's group.  At Church we just hired a new Interim Pastor and things have slowed down a good bit now that we're not interviewing but it's just the start and now we begin the process of what's next.  It's going to be an exciting time for us.  I am looking forward to seeing what is to come & to see what will develop.  And for my mom's group, we're just plugging along and in a lot of ways I feel the same way about Church that I do about the group, I am looking forward to seeing what will develop and what is to come.  I do need some fresh blood to join the org team so we can also move into that next phase.  It's kind of funny that my Church life and my Mom's group are so intertwined, I mean I started my life on Session at the same time I became Organizer of the Mom's group.  But I guess that's life in general, it's all connected.  And in a lot of ways that I am looking forward to what's next with these, I look forward to that for my life.  The more I become involved with & as each day passes I try to figure out what my place in this world is.  I know I was destined to be a mom, but what else does God have in store for me?  Everything I have ever done outside of the work force has always been wonderful, I just somehow need to figure out how to mesh the two.  Not that I am looking to go to work but honestly if I could figure out a way to do all of the things I love doing and get paid, wouldn't that be amazing!  Someday, I will know where this journey is taking me but for now I am along for the ride. 

I think I have entered a rambling state, so I am signing off now.  Btw this blog is dedicated to Susan Carlson! :)

Tuesday, August 17, 2010

Day in the life!

Here it is, by popular demand my 2nd entry! I know everyone was on pins & needles waiting. 

Abbie had her 2nd day of school today, which hopefully will go well.  We did our 1st carline drop-off this morning & it was pretty fast, I was home w/in 15mins.  I felt pretty good about that, I do think Abbie was a little apprehensive that a student was there as part of the "Safety Patrol" and not a teacher, and I just wanted to hop out of the car and walk her in but I didn't.  And since I was the 1st car in the line I couldn't just sit there until 2:30, so I slowly pulled out & came on home to the chaos of the boys.  When Harrison starts preschool we won't even have left yet, so I think that's kind of weird.  Well, maybe weird is not the right word but it is hard to think that Abbie will be at school about an hour before I can take LM to school.  Oh well, once he starts we'll get into a routine & everything will fall into place.  Or at least that is my hope. 

I am just grateful that things seem to be going well, I was unsure after our "Meet the Teacher" night.  We walked in all happy & about 5 mins after we got there LM somehow, and only God knows how, split his head open..so off we are rushed to the Nurses office, which thankfully we know her but I just felt awful for taking her away from her children's "Meet the Teacher" night.  But they were able to slow the bleeding and then we made a trip to GHS ER.  They decided to put the dermabond on it, so no needles but there is some security in good 'ole stitches.  Ya know!  All seemed to be ok & LM was back to his normal self.  Funny, how well the bounce back & forget that they had a hole in their head.  Anyways, the next night we were getting ready for bed when I figured I'd let the boo-boo air out so I took off the band-aid, well out came a corner of the glue.  Dagnabit!  Back to the ER we went, they reglued it, which was kind of annoying but something about infection.  This go round we haven't put any band-aids & it seems to be sticking.  I am sure he's going to have a lovely scar b/c there is no way that this ugly glue mess is going to end up looking pretty once it all falls off & heals.  I could be wrong so we'll just see.  The ER Dr. actually just called to check on him, I love it when they follow-up. 

Other than school, not a whole lot has been going on in the Finney house.  Harrison & I did get to go to get dressed up for a wedding this past weekend.  The wedding of a very beautiful young woman whom I have known for a very long time.  It was so strange to witness her getting married when I can still see her standing in her front yard as a pre-schooler asking to learn cheers about USC.  But no matter how young I feel that she is, the fact is she's is all grown up and the same age as Harrison & I were when we got married.  Everyone grows up someday right?  Before I know it, it will be Harrison & I watching Abbie get married..but dear goodness, I sure hope that's at least 20 yrs away. 

I did just see a back-to-school segment on the Today Show and they were talking about the supplies that parents are being asked to buy b/c of budget cuts.  It really hit a nerve b/c while yes, it is a public education we as parents do need to make sure our kids and their classes have what they need.  The segment was talking about how parents are being asked to bring in more household type items, like ziplocs, papertowels & even toilet paper & detergent.  I just kind of figure if that teacher needs it & she's going to be using it for my child then it's what we buy.  It's not a thought of "why am I being asked to buy this"  it's you're teaching my child & if this is what you need then this is what you will get.  I guess some parent could feel like they should have to buy anything to send their child to school for a "public" education but seriously "public" doesn't mean free.  Even if it were a private school, you'd still have to by back-to-school supplies, it's just all the other things are built into "tuition" so you might not be aware of that extra few bucks that have been built in for the extras teachers need.  I know it's a different story if you can't afford the items but if you can & it's going to make our children's experience all that much better then just get what the teacher needs.  I am glad teachers are asking & aren't just getting them themselves.  But that's a whole other blog as to why we don't pay those we trust to teach our children more money!  I mean the big-wigs certainly make sure they have their millions & they end up screwing something up most of the time.  I won't go off on a tangent so I will stop now.

I need to get off of here & get my day started.  I am going to meet a dear friends brand new baby so we need to head in that direction. And then hope to go see another dear friend who just had her baby too. Babies, Babies & more Babies..no it doesn't make me have that "oh just one more feeling" I am very happy with starting to watch my babies grow & not have one or be pregnant. 

I might not write again for a few days so just so you can be up to date with my life here's what's coming up.  This weekend, we have a birthday party and a neighborhood party.  Plus, Sunday is Rally Day at Eastminster (our Church).  This is when we kick off the Fall with the start of new classes.  Plus it's a momentous day in our Church's history b/c we have our 1st Interim Pastor preaching.  He started yesterday & it's going to be so exciting to have a full-time person in place that is going to help us move in the direction we need to go.  And after Church we're having a bbq! It's always a great time to eat together!  Lots of fun!

Ok, for now that's all I can think of.  So I am off, plus LM is crying, he probably catapulted off the futon in the playroom since that's where the whimpers are coming from.  Nope, no jumping just an arm..no breaks & no tears so we're all good!!  And now Benjamin has started with "momma" at the top of his lungs..it's amazing how I am blocking it all out to write this..no worries..they're fine!!  (he had just climbed on top of the toy shelf..no big deal..) seriously, all is good!

Bye for now!!

Thursday, August 5, 2010

1st Blog 8/5/10

I guess I am giving in to blogging!  Why not, right!  It's a place where I can write anything I want & you can share in my life.  I wouldn't call my life crazy but we do have our moments. 

Today we had out typical day of going to the gym then running errands where Abbie & Harrison proceeded to pitch a fit because I didn't want to buy yet another stuffed animal.  They got over it quickly but for a few moments there wasn't a soul in a 5 mile radius that couldn't here "why mommy, why" mixed in with tears.  I am all for buying new stuff but we have a million stuffed animals & toys and just didn't need new ones.  Then of course there are the candy bars, gummy worms and all the other delicious treats right at the register & so the "can I have some candy" questions start.  I am convinced stores were designed by a man who never shopped with his kids or one who never had children.  Oh well, such is life, right.

I am looking forward to tomorrow because we're going to Switch-A-Roos Consignment Sale.  I hope to find some good deals.  I did manage to score some things at An Angels Attic last week, but no pants for Abbie, which is what we need badly.  She's hard to shop for because not only is she in between sizes she's so doggone picky.  Yes, I know she gets it from me.  Sometimes I am grateful for her pickyness but other times, I just wish she'd understand "I bought it & you're going to wear it" concept but then I guess she wouldn't be related to me.  So I just roll with it & hope we can compromise & find things we both like.  And if we don't have any luck there it is Tax Free weekend, so I guess we'll hit up the Mall or Target. 

Hopefully we will have a nice relaxing weekend.  We don't have much going on, a friends housewarming party & Church but other than that notta.  My mother-in-law was coming but thankfully decided it against it, it's good for the kids but I am glad to not have to have company this weekend. 

Right now it's rest time but I only have one little boy sleeping and the other two are attempting to run up and down the hall.  Abbie is pretty good about staying in her room, mainly because "Hannah Montana" is on, she's a newly converted Hannah Montana freak.  I get daily updates on what Miley is doing on the show.  It's kind of funny.  Harrison on the other hand, rarely naps & had never gotten the whole let's just rest concept.  But I do manage to keep him in his room for some of the time, the rest of it, he's running in & out of his room and coming to tell me some super important details.  Such is the life of a 3 yr old.  Only if he understood that it's these brief moments while they're in their rooms that help this mom stay some what sane.   

Anyways, I guess that's it for my 1st blog.  I am off to do some dishes and laundry.  You know you wanna come help!